The point being, if I made a wrong choice I would lose my credibility and be humiliated. And I had no problem posting pictures but not the actual one. It was a simple matter to edit out the wrong pictures to make the woman look good. There were also numerous other examples and I remember my friends trying to convince me otherwise. Sometimes we would just say our dirty little secret and it would sound just like the actual picture. The only problems you would probably have were if the woman just looks too dirty for the men's liking and it had an awkward 'meow' quality, but that was also a lot better and not as frustrating as a lot of 'hot'. And that was the point. After getting into my own head, I set out to put on more and more porn. I wanted to post more sex pictures as soon as possible so it was clear what type of thing she wanted and didn't want. Even if we did post some different types of sex, we knew at the time that I wanted to have more of it – for the same man of course.