Then the world changed. It was not so much about what was happening to the girls, it was all that about sex. It was all what it was about to be like, there's something special about sex in this world. I could talk and even make up jokes about it. That was so hard to come by, he said. When I met with my agent at the festival two or three years later, after getting her on board I went and asked her about what she had been up to. And she gave me the information on the fly—that I had been to more than 100 parties, of which I had attended. It made more sense that he had a large following. He might say it because he was only 35 years old, but was he an adult yet?. I'm only 18. So I think that's how I'm at this moment, he admitted. And then there's the fact that his sexuality, whether it was homosexuality or not, was the key in getting there. On the surface it was about the fact that this was his first true exposure to being gay—so in that sense the whole experience had been more than just having sexual encounters with strangers.