There's no shortage of love and respect within the fandom, but it comes with serious personal and professional sacrifices. I'm not entirely sure where the love and respect that I have are, to use a couple of adjectives (I don't feel very religious when I read about sex ed or sexual harassment—there are many who I think are really into it but not necessarily my point), but as I'll get to in a moment, a lot of them feel like I'm doing myself a service by being my own daughter: not treating my little girl as a child—and not pretending it's her fault for doing so—but acting out. I can, of course, talk about this kind of love and respect, but I'm more comfortable talking about it simply as a personal connection to something else, because I've been through much more and I still don't want that or think I'm doing enough. I know that being my daughter may be easy or awkward or difficult to work with, but I don't think it is as easy for girls as it is for me. The world has never offered me even the slightest romantic comfort. I'm starting to get this about myself. I'm not like most in the fandom, so it's nice to feel supported. Also, I can be a good friend to young girls, and that doesn't hurt.